if i could see you smile for a little while longer.

I was begging you please dont go.

I just wanted to hold on a little tighter. Hoping those moments would last a little longer. and that time would permit to all of the desires of my heart.

dont give me bull.

i think it's utter rubbish.

I'm itching all over my hands. Maybe I'm allergic to grass.

hearts all over the world.

happy valentine's day!

you make me fall in love.

blow the candles out.

the miles apart only makes us stronger.

I had the most wonderful 2 years(slightly less than that) of my life thanks to them.
Met my first friend in TMS which is *drumrolls* Joanne. Heh
Met the most awesome group of friends and people.
Had the most amazing classmates for 2 years. (4/2 yo!)
Had many many problems and hopefully found solutions to them.
Had the most awesome 24 hours that I wouldnt trade for anything else.
Had friendships that I really treasure so much.
Had fun, laughed, cried and smiled foolishly.
those 1461 days were the greatest, wonderfulest, bestest and supercalifragelisticespieladocious-est, toughest... so far and we will all move on.

so for that, my overwhelmed heart says thank you.

check yes juliet.

hey! Guess its been a long while since i updated this space. Anyway, wanted to say I'm doing well. And time during the hols have been well-spent playing bang with special group of friends, teaching huaqiang and gang how to play family business and missing lots of people! I really feel nostalgic! But its okay like pun say we will all meet up soon right!

And you guys should really try out poladroid! Its really really awesome man. They even have a windows version for it now. Now check out my poladroid man. Wicked awesome! When film runs out, you can rely on poladroid! I have a notion that my sx-70 is sickkkkk... Nawwwww! Rawrrrrrrrr....Dont forget to check out haybale.org. And NUS high school, I haven't forgotten you too.

I'm still holding onto;

this is the sound of honesty

so much to say, I can't seem to say it. I can't seem to pen it down either.

I don't need acceptance. I don't require emotions. I don't want to regret. I don't need to love...

Love Story - Rain (International version like woah...)

Hey.
This is my story.
It's true. Listen.

Oh baby, there's something I have to tell you 'bout.
Can't hold it in my heart, all the pain is breaking me down.
Thought I found my one true love.
Couldn't show you how I feel.
I was stupid baby my pride wouldn't let me be real.
I'm asking for one more chance.
Didn't know where you stand or what your feelings demanded from me.
I pleaded your love wouldn't pass.
You left me out in the rain when you just walked away.

This song is a story of a true love tragedy.
I gave up my heart, I tried to give you all of me.
We've come to the ending somehow
I don't know what to do.
I don't wanna forget now.
I love you baby I still love you (I love you ajikdo sarang-hae)
This is the sound of honesty
I gave up my heart, I tried to be all I could be.
My heart's gonna wait forever,
I'm still holding onto all of our moments together,
I love you baby I still love you.

We were so much in love,
tell me how could you forget.
Wish you were here with me,
but memories are all I left.
It seems like the promises you made to me were nothing.
And you're smiling girl but I can see you hurt within.
I'm pleading for one more chance.
Baby give me your hand,
so we can both understand this love.
I pleaded your love wouldn't pass.
All the pieces of my soul want to live in your heart.

This song is a story of a true love tragedy.
I gave up my heart, I tried to give you all of me.
We've come to the ending somehow
I don't know what to do.
I don't wanna forget now.
I love you baby I still love you (I love you ajikdo sarang-hae)
This is the sound of honesty
I gave up my heart, I tried to be all I could be.
My heart's gonna wait forever,
I'm still holding onto all of our moments together,
I love you baby I still love you.

Gotta close door, just like you did before.
See my heart is broken,
Baby I can do it no more.
Even though it hurts, I'll make a brand new start.
And lay to rest all the moments that played with my heart.
And just before I do, I gotta let you know that
no man will love you more so baby never forget.
Listen, I'm without you.
All I know right now,
I love I'll always love you.

This song is a story of a true love tragedy.
I gave up my heart, I tried to give you all of me.
We've come to the ending somehow
I don't know what to do.
I don't wanna forget now.
I love you baby I still love you (I love you ajikdo sarang-hae)
This is the sound of honesty
I gave up my heart, I tried to be all I could be.
My heart's gonna wait forever,
I'm still holding onto all of our moments together,
I love you I will always love you.

hey, dont walk cause its time to fly.

we'll let destiny lead us.

I was sian lin's and tanoto's mum today cause i helped them to tie their ice skates and i was like 'you need help not? but must call me mum first.' LOL and junkai was being 'the joker' again just like what his shirt says. He cant really skate so he almost ended up hugging a girl and the girl oi-ed him. There was also another girl staring at him and i was like mouthing to her 'crazy right' and she nodded her head like furiously. And the guys skated very fast to see chio bu ice skate. haha . And btw, you know how people if they want to walk home they always say i want to take bus 11. well, we just found out theres actually a bus that is called bus 11. But the frequency is like damn long luh!look at them hold hands lah! awww...
my ex best friend haha!haha! look at hq's face lah! yarh and he got cheated by steffi to make a facebook account.

explicit and vulgar photos have been removed. hahahahahaha! look out for part 2 arh, the unveiling of the despo club secret hide-out that even the (fake) self-proclaim president hq dont know!

time can't erase a feeling this strong.

Yup, ain't no stopping us now.

So many things on my mind. So much I want to say. I don't exactly know what I am feeling right now.



I'm missing so many people right now. Especially one particular person and steffi. A peek at an sms the secretary of despo club sent me. 'Haha ya ya. jus wait for guy to jio u.i going to stay single until girl jio me haha!'

the lovers are losing.

its like catching lightning, the chances of finding someone like you! :) what we have is worth fighting for.

After grad night, we had post party. So fun we played risk and poker until the sun rise. I said i would break win's record of 42 hours but i couldnt survive for more than 26 hours. It was super funny cause we kept talking about losing car keys *coughs*. And pun was being racist as usual. LOL! Though he was nice enough to split his fake money with me during poker.

at poker
Me: eh, split money with me eh. I got no money lah.
Pun: okok.
Win: wah, you two divorce arh.
Me: -looks at pun- even though we're divorced, i'll always...
Win: -continues- *coughs*...love you...

at risk
Me: eh, I'm dying. Pun, send your troops to help me leh.
Pun: EH SHUDDUP LAHHH, I CANNOT EVEN SAVE MYSELF HOW TO SAVE YOU.

Me: I WILL RULE THAILAND!
Win: No, I will rule thailand. its my homeland there is where i belong.
Me: I'll fight you!
Win: come ah!
Me: to death!

in the end, i have the lowest amount of territory. -.- and every time pun rolls the dices in zuhairi's brownie box, he gets a damn high number! lol, so weng was like suspecting something is wrong with the box and then win crushed the box. I tried rolling on the box and it didnt work anymore.

hold these precious memories close
don't ever let go.
so stop flashing your cameras,
let us just enjoy this moment.
wait no longer,
cause our time is getting shorter.

the 6 liner specially dedicated to special people like the 24 gang (win and dew the combo set, shalyn thong, sara) , MR LEEEEEEEE, my first secondary school friend Joanne, Vinodini D/O Pandian, Rui Xue, Seow seow, Miss GAO ning, Meiyoke, Hua qiang, Despo club (Ryan, Junkai, Steffi), Orange club and also not forgetting LS club, 2046 (a very important number), council excos (sec3 and sec4) and 4/2(though we have our differences). AND MR PUN.(SORRY FORGOT ABOUT YOU, REMEMBER MY PRESENT!)

Secondary school was the most fun I ever had. Dont be afraid, each of you have a place in my heart this shows how big my heart is. :DDDDD I'll miss you guys.
I LOVE YOU GUYS!!!!! -HYPERVENTILATES-

On love, hurt and regrets

This life, you have loved and been loved, hurt and been hurt. Many a time you would go,'if i could turn back time.' And regret the things you have done. But sometimes memories of these hurt and love can be so distant, you can't seem to remember them. Thats the worst part.

To run endlessly...

I need to run to some place, somewhere I could be free. With each running step, I gain speed and power. Adrenalin surging, perspiration trickling, deep breathing and lactic acid build-up. I like the feeling of running so hard that you cant feel your legs anymore.

Cute cute! Someone made my day :D

socratic method and liar paradox

an excerpt from my diary. thought it might be interesting to put it up somewhere. (Go ahead, wonder about what i write in there.)


okay, so exams send me straight into a cardiac arrest.

It is a pleasure and honor to write endlessly without cares of this world. And yes, without teachers breathing on your neck for grammatical errors. It would actually be interesting to do literature on House. There is so much to write about the character House and Wilson and the relationship between them. I know I have been going on and on about how great House is and you should worship at his feet and all but he always makes sense. For example....

"I'm sure this goes against everything you've been taught, but right and wrong do exist. Just because you don't know what the right answer is - maybe there's even no way you could know what the right answer is - doesn't make your answer right or even okay. It's much simpler than that. It's just plain wrong."

Walking along orchard road with one side of my ear being blasted with music from my silver ipod classic while the other eavesdropping to others' conversation punctuated with the 'lah's, the 'leh's and the 'lorh's. The sudden realization struck me. We, children, live in a bubble. Shield from the world. And even if you do realize that Lehman Brothers' have already collapsed, what are the chances that it has direct implication on us? Because all that is instructed and expected of us is to study. So to hell with the presidential elections and plunging market. (whatever)

There's something about art so enticing.

the poolside rendezvous

you're my raison d'être.

Teevee has trash. Seems like american drama appeal to me better. This is one of the many days I wish that I could be a writer. But house is really really good! I love hugh laurie... He's so funny.

"We've got a problem. This guy only has half the brain."

"What I am is not what you want but what you need. I'm damaged." -House to Cameron

a tribute to my gay bfffffffffffffffffffffffffff!

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xiexie (see, chinese. I'm like an expert at it) for everything!

And I'm very happy! :D

Timo Cruz: Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. It is our light, not our darkness, that most frightens us. Your playing small does not serve the world. There is nothing enlightened about shrinking so that other people won't feel insecure around you. We are all meant to shine as children do. It's not just in some of us; it is in everyone. And as we let our own lights shine, we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same. As we are liberated from our own fear, our presence automatically liberates others.

handphone radiation kills? maybe not...

So, there's this group of us who tried to pop popcorns with our hand phone as seen in youtube. DOESN'T WORK THAT WAY! hah, but it was fun while it lasted.

just a boy from baltimore with big dreams

I feel compelled to talk about this.

Because every once in a century, a hero comes along and with strength so great and with perseverance so vast. Yes yes, Michael Phelps.

One day when people hear my name, I want them to go the way I go when I hear Michael Phelps' name. Usually when i hear Michael Phelps' name, I would go "omg, he has hot body!" or "omg, he's like so pro!". I rather the latter response. But if people would compliment that i have hot bod then it would be an added bonus but it doesnt really matter.

However, I note the frequency of successful people doing badly in school. -.-"

"The biggest thing is staying positive and imagining anything is possible. Because it really is." - Phelps

I have my own principles too.
I believe in hard work. I believe that the human mind can achieve far greater things if we constant push ourselves.
I don't believe in perfection and perfection can only be personified through Christ. :)

what does it really mean to be humane?

Its so abstract, sketchy and subjective. A question mark in the question itself. Almost impossible to quantify.

don't be sad that xinyi disappeared from blogger! But she has added herself to flickr! Click here!