Yesterday was a sad day. I got ignored. My entire existence was denied. I dont get ignored, I ignore people. And mr concentrated crap says its 'karma' that I got ignored cause I ignore people.)):

What am I doing without you?

And I'm my bestfriend's ardent fan.

There's a light in me and its shining bright. I can almost touch the skies. You're the reason I believe.

yeah, your attention shouldnt have been on some kids who know how to act nor on some kids who know how to operate cameras.

I dont want to pit myself against them. I dont want to compare myself with anyone anymore. Cause no one gonna ever find another me. When you dislike someone, it seem like its probably cause you're jealous of what someone elses have that you dont. I'm perplexed. Its not that I havent tried. I did. Its more of a can't than a I-wouldn't-want-to. Maybe cause they get bestfriend's attention all the time and I'm just jealous. Maybe... I'm trying to put it logically by saying to myself,' Hey, my friends' love is self sufficient.' But the love just aint the same. Oh gosh, I'm so selfish.)):

What people said hurt me. And my heart's heavy. I needed to set it free.
'I think i should just go to sleep... But my heart is so heavy, I cant sleep!'
'Then set it free lah!'
-.-"

Sometimes, I'm such a pain in the ass.
This is the last time that I'm ever gonna come here tonight.

Ah, I want to have a secret diary in a secret annexe of my house. So when it gets published, I would be famous like Anne Frank. Probability? 0. Z-E-R-O. I mentioned it to my friend. And he say 'why do you want to be like Anne Frank? I mean, she only got famous after she died. You want to be famous after you die?'

Only a certain someone makes my heart palpitate against my sternum. -.-

My giving in doesnt mean I dont mind.

thank you bestfriend, for always being there.

And also kudos to Mr. concentrated crap. (:

A new hope?

Wow. The star wars title really suits this scenario.

Everyone at one point or another will feel hopelessness. I am not an exception. I too feel a struggle within me for hope. Dilemma between giving up and hoping. Theres an internal struggle for hope. I want to keep holding on to that hope. 'O' levels dont seem so far away now. Just in a few months, matter of weeks actually. I will just keep hoping and just keep holding.

And we often base our self worth on academics but we often fail to realised that we are worth more than just that.

I hate it how vulnerable humans are. But thats just how they are.

Piracy? NOT. [/EDIT]

Well, I had nothing to do so i decided to look at ben's blog. Look what I've found! If only I can do a film as good as that.


below is a series of brief and funny conversations (if you get what i mean, haha)

Me: Rukku, you stay at Pasir ris right?
Rukku: No, i stay in tampines...
Me: But you got this pasir ris look.
Rukku: Tampines rocks! Got safra, -goes on elaborating other examples of what tampines have and what pasir ris doesnt- and it also got MRT!
Me: err... Pasir ris also got mrt... -.-

Me: I dont know why I see your face, like buay song(not happy) like that.
Nikki: why?
Me: I dont know.
Me: I think if i irritate you, I will feel better. -Sings umbrella-

-teacher talks in class-
Me: What is tapered pants arh?
Andrew: -stands up and folds his pants to show me how tapered pants look like-
Me: If people who got fat thighs wear not nice leh.
Andrew: Of course lah, only sexy legs like mine deserve to wear tapered pants.

Me: -talks to some korean girl-
Miss Wong: xinyi, go back to yours seat.
Me: But i need to socialise with my counterparts! -returns to seat-
Miss Wong: You can do that after class.
Me: Eh win, want to socialise with me after class?
Win: Err... cannot leh. My house on fire.

Me: Eh, dew! Why you never go for team bonding? I call your mother arh!
Dew: Cannot! My house no phone. I live in the rural area.
Me: Huh? Then how you get your scholarship?
Dew: From my village lucky draw!

Me: So where is Laos? Is it a country?
Dew: Nonono, its in Singapore
Me: Lame lah. Is it part of thailand?
Laos guy: -googles world map and shows it to me-
Dew: Okay, so I stay here. -points to bangkok-
Me: I thought you stay in a rural area?
Dew: Oh yarh. I forgot.

Ryan: Eh, male version of bitch is butch.
Me: Really? I didnt know that.
Ryan: NO LAH! -laughs- You sounded innocent.
Meiyoke: Ohhh... Xinyi... I didnt know you were innocent.
Ryan: That's why i said 'sounded'