this is the sound of honesty

so much to say, I can't seem to say it. I can't seem to pen it down either.

I don't need acceptance. I don't require emotions. I don't want to regret. I don't need to love...

Love Story - Rain (International version like woah...)

Hey.
This is my story.
It's true. Listen.

Oh baby, there's something I have to tell you 'bout.
Can't hold it in my heart, all the pain is breaking me down.
Thought I found my one true love.
Couldn't show you how I feel.
I was stupid baby my pride wouldn't let me be real.
I'm asking for one more chance.
Didn't know where you stand or what your feelings demanded from me.
I pleaded your love wouldn't pass.
You left me out in the rain when you just walked away.

This song is a story of a true love tragedy.
I gave up my heart, I tried to give you all of me.
We've come to the ending somehow
I don't know what to do.
I don't wanna forget now.
I love you baby I still love you (I love you ajikdo sarang-hae)
This is the sound of honesty
I gave up my heart, I tried to be all I could be.
My heart's gonna wait forever,
I'm still holding onto all of our moments together,
I love you baby I still love you.

We were so much in love,
tell me how could you forget.
Wish you were here with me,
but memories are all I left.
It seems like the promises you made to me were nothing.
And you're smiling girl but I can see you hurt within.
I'm pleading for one more chance.
Baby give me your hand,
so we can both understand this love.
I pleaded your love wouldn't pass.
All the pieces of my soul want to live in your heart.

This song is a story of a true love tragedy.
I gave up my heart, I tried to give you all of me.
We've come to the ending somehow
I don't know what to do.
I don't wanna forget now.
I love you baby I still love you (I love you ajikdo sarang-hae)
This is the sound of honesty
I gave up my heart, I tried to be all I could be.
My heart's gonna wait forever,
I'm still holding onto all of our moments together,
I love you baby I still love you.

Gotta close door, just like you did before.
See my heart is broken,
Baby I can do it no more.
Even though it hurts, I'll make a brand new start.
And lay to rest all the moments that played with my heart.
And just before I do, I gotta let you know that
no man will love you more so baby never forget.
Listen, I'm without you.
All I know right now,
I love I'll always love you.

This song is a story of a true love tragedy.
I gave up my heart, I tried to give you all of me.
We've come to the ending somehow
I don't know what to do.
I don't wanna forget now.
I love you baby I still love you (I love you ajikdo sarang-hae)
This is the sound of honesty
I gave up my heart, I tried to be all I could be.
My heart's gonna wait forever,
I'm still holding onto all of our moments together,
I love you I will always love you.

hey, dont walk cause its time to fly.

we'll let destiny lead us.

I was sian lin's and tanoto's mum today cause i helped them to tie their ice skates and i was like 'you need help not? but must call me mum first.' LOL and junkai was being 'the joker' again just like what his shirt says. He cant really skate so he almost ended up hugging a girl and the girl oi-ed him. There was also another girl staring at him and i was like mouthing to her 'crazy right' and she nodded her head like furiously. And the guys skated very fast to see chio bu ice skate. haha . And btw, you know how people if they want to walk home they always say i want to take bus 11. well, we just found out theres actually a bus that is called bus 11. But the frequency is like damn long luh!look at them hold hands lah! awww...
my ex best friend haha!haha! look at hq's face lah! yarh and he got cheated by steffi to make a facebook account.

explicit and vulgar photos have been removed. hahahahahaha! look out for part 2 arh, the unveiling of the despo club secret hide-out that even the (fake) self-proclaim president hq dont know!

time can't erase a feeling this strong.

Yup, ain't no stopping us now.

So many things on my mind. So much I want to say. I don't exactly know what I am feeling right now.



I'm missing so many people right now. Especially one particular person and steffi. A peek at an sms the secretary of despo club sent me. 'Haha ya ya. jus wait for guy to jio u.i going to stay single until girl jio me haha!'

the lovers are losing.

its like catching lightning, the chances of finding someone like you! :) what we have is worth fighting for.

After grad night, we had post party. So fun we played risk and poker until the sun rise. I said i would break win's record of 42 hours but i couldnt survive for more than 26 hours. It was super funny cause we kept talking about losing car keys *coughs*. And pun was being racist as usual. LOL! Though he was nice enough to split his fake money with me during poker.

at poker
Me: eh, split money with me eh. I got no money lah.
Pun: okok.
Win: wah, you two divorce arh.
Me: -looks at pun- even though we're divorced, i'll always...
Win: -continues- *coughs*...love you...

at risk
Me: eh, I'm dying. Pun, send your troops to help me leh.
Pun: EH SHUDDUP LAHHH, I CANNOT EVEN SAVE MYSELF HOW TO SAVE YOU.

Me: I WILL RULE THAILAND!
Win: No, I will rule thailand. its my homeland there is where i belong.
Me: I'll fight you!
Win: come ah!
Me: to death!

in the end, i have the lowest amount of territory. -.- and every time pun rolls the dices in zuhairi's brownie box, he gets a damn high number! lol, so weng was like suspecting something is wrong with the box and then win crushed the box. I tried rolling on the box and it didnt work anymore.

hold these precious memories close
don't ever let go.
so stop flashing your cameras,
let us just enjoy this moment.
wait no longer,
cause our time is getting shorter.

the 6 liner specially dedicated to special people like the 24 gang (win and dew the combo set, shalyn thong, sara) , MR LEEEEEEEE, my first secondary school friend Joanne, Vinodini D/O Pandian, Rui Xue, Seow seow, Miss GAO ning, Meiyoke, Hua qiang, Despo club (Ryan, Junkai, Steffi), Orange club and also not forgetting LS club, 2046 (a very important number), council excos (sec3 and sec4) and 4/2(though we have our differences). AND MR PUN.(SORRY FORGOT ABOUT YOU, REMEMBER MY PRESENT!)

Secondary school was the most fun I ever had. Dont be afraid, each of you have a place in my heart this shows how big my heart is. :DDDDD I'll miss you guys.
I LOVE YOU GUYS!!!!! -HYPERVENTILATES-

On love, hurt and regrets

This life, you have loved and been loved, hurt and been hurt. Many a time you would go,'if i could turn back time.' And regret the things you have done. But sometimes memories of these hurt and love can be so distant, you can't seem to remember them. Thats the worst part.

To run endlessly...

I need to run to some place, somewhere I could be free. With each running step, I gain speed and power. Adrenalin surging, perspiration trickling, deep breathing and lactic acid build-up. I like the feeling of running so hard that you cant feel your legs anymore.

Cute cute! Someone made my day :D

socratic method and liar paradox

an excerpt from my diary. thought it might be interesting to put it up somewhere. (Go ahead, wonder about what i write in there.)


okay, so exams send me straight into a cardiac arrest.

It is a pleasure and honor to write endlessly without cares of this world. And yes, without teachers breathing on your neck for grammatical errors. It would actually be interesting to do literature on House. There is so much to write about the character House and Wilson and the relationship between them. I know I have been going on and on about how great House is and you should worship at his feet and all but he always makes sense. For example....

"I'm sure this goes against everything you've been taught, but right and wrong do exist. Just because you don't know what the right answer is - maybe there's even no way you could know what the right answer is - doesn't make your answer right or even okay. It's much simpler than that. It's just plain wrong."